I’ve finally figured out how to run a Stable Diffusion… matrix? on my own hardware.
That’s right, kiddies: it’s time.
I made some images. (´•ω•｀)
What it was like to ‘make’ these
Overall, they’re kind of same-y? Their consistency is interesting, in that, they’re incredibly… repetitive.
As of this writing, I’ve made about 150 images, and, depending on the prompt, you can get some real gems; but you can also get some shit where you’re like, why is the mouth always the same? Why the Rictus Grin? Why are these images so fucking horny?
All-in-all I would die inside if I couldn’t make these images; but, also, I have to recognize— some of these are pretty not good. I’ve kept the vast majority of them out of this image gallery (barring ones who have a certain je ne sais quoi about them; but, ultimately, doing a lot of A.I. art has just made me want to get back into drawing. Because, clearly, I can do better than this.
For the longest my main problem with drawing was I had no real earthly idea of how I wanted to draw the shape of the lower part of the face. With endless options for different faces provided by the A.I., I can see what sort of faces I want to draw, now. That was what was holding me back.
It’s been a journey. I remember when I was around five years old, and I made my first O.C. I’ve been blessed with several circumstances: that somebody made a Michiru Kagemori model I could use in VRChat, to explore some things about myself; and, just a day ago, I found someone on Twitter who made a Stable Diffusion LORA model that has enabled me to make these images. I’m so happy I could cry.
I should also note that the reason I’ve pursued this as I have is because, barring a few differences, Michiru Kagemori looks pretty much like my childhood O.C. There are changes to be made: she needs a half orange/yellow, half blue face; but these are minor differences. It makes me feel so good to be able to actually see her again. For the longest, due to trauma, I really couldn’t even put myself in the mindset to even remember her. But now, here I am, over 30 years later, and… there she is!
Also, tidbit: I’m not a furry. Sorry, kids. It’s much deeper than that. You can think of me as being one if it amuses you, though.
Why I made these
But there are a couple of things I’d like to confess. Or ‘announce’. I’ve done it before, but I’ll do it again.
When I was little, I had memories of a past life. And I said to myself— huh, it would appear that I was an alien. Orange skin; a unique face, I should say. And, especially, I think this is the first time I’ve ever been solid.
So I made an O.C. And, she was a shapeshifter.
It’s pretty funny— because, in a more-advanced model, I couldn’t produce any of these ‘mistakes’ in A.I. art.
But when you want to produce Lovecraftian limbs and fingers, this is your go-to.
Lots of people like to make fun of A.I. art because they’re like, it can’t draw hands! It draws too many fingers! Too many limbs!
Joke’s on you, motherfucker. That’s exactly what I need it to do.
There are a lot of arguments against A.I. art, and I agree wif dem, mostly. Fact of the matter is, though, I had to do this. I ‘accept’ any judgement for it, primarily because I really don’t care. Making all of this raised my mood from a 3 to 4, when I primarily exist in emotional states somewhere around -14 out of 10.
I’m not really writing this as a ‘plea’ for leniency, because no human being, or anyone at all, has a right to govern me. I’m just sayin’— I had to live my life. I made this choice, and, quod fors feret, feremus aequo animo. This is but one step in my journey to feel better, and, I’m pretty happy with the results! (◕ᴗ◕✿)
Also goddamn am I uncomfortable with being ‘sexual’. Fffff.
I should note: when I say I ‘accept’ any ‘judgement’ for it, I mean, ‘I’m not going to listen to it, and I’m also not going to grace it with a response.’ There’s no submission in this house. These knees never learned how to bend. Everybody on Twitter is a big ol’ shithead and I’ve decided, fuck ’em. I’ve gotta live my life.
Okay I loves you bye-bye c(◕ᴗ◕✿)(´•ω•｀)
I HAVE A GUN and nipples AND I AM ONLY AFRAID TO USE ONE OF THESE